Its been awhile.

Its been quite a while since i've posted...

And i'm sorry to all my fans... (that was a joke)

First of all School has been alright.

Hair school is defiantly not easy, and its more dramatic then high school.

Its stressful. Its exhausting. But I still love it.

Update as of last time...

+My hair was blue, then it was green, and now its blonde and gold.

I've also debated shaving off one side of my hair, but thats still yet to be decided upon.

some helpful tid bits of knowledge.

+boys suck.

+girls are bitches.

+music is always helpful.

+chocolate really can solve any problem when your moody.

=]

toke it up you joke.

Drugs.

I fucking hate them.

plain and simple.

If its not for one thing is another.

Drugs take people over and change them.

I havn't once seen a "better person" come out of drugs.

Drugs and Drinking=fucking stupid.

Im tired of the same old song and dance, finding out some new friend is addicted to some shit.

It gets old, why cant people just see what they are doing and realize how fucking idiotic it is.

This is bias and I dont care, I hate it and thats all I have to say.

I thought you were smarter than this.

I though you were better than this.

Your low, your nothing anymore.

Be above the influence, its not hard I promise.

Fuck.

hit me please.

Went to another concert last night.

By far the most hardcore one i've gone to yet.

=]

the music was lovely.

the bands were epic.

however the atmosphere was irritating.

Namely because of recent events involving a boy...

and a boy being in my face with his new girlfriend.

UGH.

but....

+ These Hearts (three times seen now =])

+ For Today

+ Silverstein

+ The Devil Wears Prada

Epic epic set.

=D

Nuff said.

Feel the beat.

So it is decided that my favorite feeling in the whole world

(after the burn and pain of tattoos of course)

Is that vibration in your chest from the intense

volume of music at concerts.

I have added another 4 bands to my ever growing list

of shows i've been to.

=]

So far in my life I've had the privilege of seeing...

-The Hush Sound-

-Hawthorne Heights-

-From First to Last-

-All American Rejects-

-Fall Out Boy-

-Dirty Little Rabbits-

-The Birthday Massacre-

-Mindless Self Indulgence-

-These Hearts-

-Sick Puppies-

-Shinedown-

-Breaking Benjamin-

-Nickelback-

-Southern Belle-

-Down With Webster-

-HelloGoodbye-

-3OH!3-

Being able to see and witness the absolute energy and

passion bands have on stage is positively enchanting.

Concert Merch is always pretty sweet too. =]

^Down With Webster Tee, 3OH!3 hoodie.

Hoe-llaween.

Pictures of my best friends and I on the night before Halloween.

Molly-Sailor.

Josie-Referee.

Nikki-Pirate.

Me-Ringmaster/Alice in wonderland thing.

Keep it to yourself.

Why is everyone and everything based on your future with someone?

I spent my entire high school years being in

and out of serious relationships.

Thinking and "knowing" that Id be with that

person for "insert long time frame here".

I was taught and told that constantly dating

someone new isn't a good thing, and that you need to

find "the one" and be happy together forever.

Quite frankly i'm tired of it.

Im tired of stressing myself out trying to keep things together and

plan MY life according to the relationship i'm in at the time.

I've bent over backwards time and time again to be with someone

only to fall flat on my god damn ass with no back up plan.

Which then i'm stuck picking up the pieces of my life trying to

figure out where i'm going to go and be up until the next

"mr right steps up" When it came to the last straw, and I finally

get a grip, grow a strong back bone, and decide that i'm going to

live for ME and to worry about myself for awhile, I get scrutinized

and preached at for not having goals or thinking things through.

The second I stop worrying about who I will be married to in the

future people jump down my throat and start saying I have

a "fear of commitment" Excuse me?

Maybe for once i'm committing to myself!

So please...shut your fucking mouth.

Shoulda.

This blog today probably has no real reason.

I'm sitting alone in my apartment, bored out of my mind.

So this is the solution. :]

About that "ex-factor" post.

All I really have to report is that he is STILL trying to "win" me over.

HA.

He has yet to realize and comprehend that I have changed, and do not enjoy or like the same things I did when we were together.

I've been running around my apartment all morning trying to get things put away and cleaned up and stuff so it stops looking like I just moved in (although I did. haha)

I never realized that you need so much stuff to live on your own.

I never really took into account all the stuff we had at my parents place that just kept the place running.

I mean things as simple as a broom, a dish drainer, and kleenex.

+I also have a cold, so thats been trying to interrupt my life for the last two days.

But so far all in all, aside from being rather bored...

Living on my own is good.

:]