Hoe-llaween.

Pictures of my best friends and I on the night before Halloween.

Molly-Sailor.

Josie-Referee.

Nikki-Pirate.

Me-Ringmaster/Alice in wonderland thing.

Keep it to yourself.

Why is everyone and everything based on your future with someone?

I spent my entire high school years being in

and out of serious relationships.

Thinking and "knowing" that Id be with that

person for "insert long time frame here".

I was taught and told that constantly dating

someone new isn't a good thing, and that you need to

find "the one" and be happy together forever.

Quite frankly i'm tired of it.

Im tired of stressing myself out trying to keep things together and

plan MY life according to the relationship i'm in at the time.

I've bent over backwards time and time again to be with someone

only to fall flat on my god damn ass with no back up plan.

Which then i'm stuck picking up the pieces of my life trying to

figure out where i'm going to go and be up until the next

"mr right steps up" When it came to the last straw, and I finally

get a grip, grow a strong back bone, and decide that i'm going to

live for ME and to worry about myself for awhile, I get scrutinized

and preached at for not having goals or thinking things through.

The second I stop worrying about who I will be married to in the

future people jump down my throat and start saying I have

a "fear of commitment" Excuse me?

Maybe for once i'm committing to myself!

So please...shut your fucking mouth.

Shoulda.

This blog today probably has no real reason.

I'm sitting alone in my apartment, bored out of my mind.

So this is the solution. :]

About that "ex-factor" post.

All I really have to report is that he is STILL trying to "win" me over.

HA.

He has yet to realize and comprehend that I have changed, and do not enjoy or like the same things I did when we were together.

I've been running around my apartment all morning trying to get things put away and cleaned up and stuff so it stops looking like I just moved in (although I did. haha)

I never realized that you need so much stuff to live on your own.

I never really took into account all the stuff we had at my parents place that just kept the place running.

I mean things as simple as a broom, a dish drainer, and kleenex.

+I also have a cold, so thats been trying to interrupt my life for the last two days.

But so far all in all, aside from being rather bored...

Living on my own is good.

:]

I'm a big girl now.

I am officially all on my own.

Well sort of.

I moved (most) of my stuff into my first apartment yesterday.

Its still pretty empty and not very *KENZI* yet,

but its a place thats all mine.

It is a pretty great feeling, to be able to do what

you want, when you want, all the time!

My place is pretty small but its perfect for little me :]

Also, I got my nose pierced on tuesday.

Tanks Tattoos GO THERE! =]

Although my nose does hurt a little bit, its nothing

compared to when I got my industrial and my monroe done.

Both other piercings I got done at a place in my local mall.

As a word of advice don't get piercings done in Mall shops,

they aren't nearly as qualified or experienced as tattoo/piercing shops.

Both piercings I got done, reacted badly and I almost had to take them out.

So if your thinking about getting any kind of piercing, go to

a legit place, please.

Same goes for tattoos, don't try any of this "home done tattoo gun" crap.

Its filthy, unsafe, and its almost a 98% guarantee that

your tattoo quality wont be as good as a professional shop.

Thats that!

:]

The ex factor.

Everyones favorite topic...

not.

Ex's suck.

I think that is probably a vast understatement.

This blog is going to be a split type of thing.

I will be sharing some of my beef with ex's and the

n my dear friend Josie will give a bit of her input.

Kenzi:

The deal with about, 99% of all my ex boyfriends is

they like to shove theirdirty faces back into my business

right when it is most inconvenient for me.I have

had several intrude in my relationships with

current boyfriends,only to have that current boyfriend

turn into what the person was before him.

All my stupid ex's just keep trying to "resolve things"

mostly when its unwanted,and others only to get my

hopes up and be smashed onto the floor yet again.

Josie:

Kenzi's right. Old boyfriends never cease showing up at all the wrong times. And generally, the only ones that do, are the ones that you don't want to. It's like ... really, why? Why now? What's going to make the difference now ... But then, in rare cases, there is the guy you're hoping, and praying to whatever god you think there is, will find his way back to you. That, I feel, is the biggest disappointment an ex can bring you. Sometimes, I wish I had a dick and no heart ...

That being said, maybe its me just being a little sadistic, (this is Kenzi again btw) but I sometimes enjoy having an ex pop back in... just so you can sit and plot that untimely downfall to hurt them just as bad as they hurt you. But then that damn fucking conscience kicks in and I cant seem to bring myself to stoop to their level.

Fuck you ex's.

Bumleg.

Its been a little while since my last post and I feel I should just update a bit on what has been going on.

Well, I got extensions, and I am sad to report that part of them fell out, so I had to cut them out completely.

I'm a little bummed because I already miss having my super long hair, but it is a MAJOR relief to be able to take care of my hair normally again. Like to be able to sleep without a hat on, or having to put it up, or being able to shower EVERY

day instead of every OTHER day. Hopefully I will get used to my short hair, again soon.

I signed a lease on an apartment in the town I will be attending college in. The lease starts Oct 1st, but I think I am going to wait until closer to the 15th to officially move in. It depends on how annoyed i get with the people around here by then. ha. ha.

-on a side note it has come to my attention that the whole "teen pregnancy" issue is becoming more and more of a problem each day… My friend Afton addresses it in her latest blog (insert Afton's blog link), and I am proud to say that the whole reason for that specific blog post was because of a conversation her and I were having. :]

Also, my fantastic friend Dylan came to visit me today. He drove like 2 hours to come hang out with me today.

Yay for fantastic friends.

Not really much else that I have to say that is of any importance…

But here is some tunes that I would suggest looking into.

+3 - Britney Spears

+You Are So Beautiful - Escape The Fate

+Love Like Woe - The Ready Set

+I'm Made of Wax, Larry, What Are You Made Of? - A Day To Remember

+Right Where You Want Me to Be - A Day To Remember

Also, my

friend Josie has an intense obsession with the song "Teach Me How To Dougie" by - Cali Swag District

WTF is a DOUGIE?

BTW. this is my new favorite picture of me an Josie.

It looks like ima beat her ass.

=]

beauty for pain.

I cut my hair super short a few weeks ago,

(as i said in one of my blogs i believe)...

But.. because i'm a hair junkie.

I decided to get extensions.

I had my fantastic friend Vanessa put them in my hair.

After re-bleaching my hair which took an hour or so.

She started sewing my extensions in at about

2pm last Sat.

...

she was finally done at

about 6pm.

She didn't even poke me with

the needle.

=]

although my head feels slightly heavier from

the weight of the extensions,

i'm basically in love with them.

I would defiantly recommend getting them if your on the fence of yes or no on getting them.

=D